supergirl.

Boyf is still at Malaysia):

Till tomorrow, sheesh. I thought he was in Singapore already since yesterday.

I even sms-ed him today, and that was why he didn't call at all.

&I got a call from him just now from Malaysia.

(:

&my pipe is sick yaw. Hope you get well soon, and we'll do the boogieboogie dance and shake our butts off together!

I went to Jurong West(near Syiqin's block) with mommy just now!

We went there to jalan-jalan. It was fun, I even bought chicken rice kay.

Be jealous that mommy dotes on me.

Kidding alright people.

and I plan to accompany her for her therapy this Friday.

I hope it'll be fun.

I want to go out during this hols, but I'm too lazy and I don't have monehhhhhhh.

How?

I need $$$ and I need energy.

& plus at home, I get free food and free lodging. (additional, I get free maths homework!)

Who has to pay for homework right?

& I bet tomorrow's gonna be a hell boring day for me.

&I'll be expecting a call from love tomorrow.

Haaaaaaaa, the beauty of relationships.

♥

I think watching tv is better than blogging.

Dont you think so?

Training.

I woke up today, because I heard the front door closing, I thought it was mum, so I quickly rushed out for her because I wanted money to go to school for training.
It was dad, waste my time to open my eyes, to jump down from bed, to run to the door, to open the door, to look out):

Just so you know, I have a double-decker bed. It's hard to rush.

Breakfast was mommy's maccaroni and Shiqins Briko(?), you know the cute-square-little-thing that's edible:D

Training was depressing.

I dont even know if that's the word to describe tiring+stressful+fun+full of quarrels+tension.

It just happens sometimes yeah. I wonder why, sometimes it's just so hard to stop doing silly things,doing the antennae on my head during the training, sending kisses to Nurin while coach is explaining. Pfft, the coach doesn't know how to control the team.

Nobody controls me anyway.

Ooooh, Fatin taught me a sexy way of talking in the toilet while we were doing our hair(:

Going to Pearl Delight was full of crap, we laughed and crapped around.

"I WANT MORE NIPPLESSS!" (inside joke!)

&I don't understand people sometimes. I try so hard, but all I get is shit.

Sometimes, just saying sorry isn't enough, go put some effort into it. I know it's been hard kay.

It's been hard on me too, but you once told me to stay strong despite everything.

I wonder why things has to turn out like this. I didn't want things to be this way, but it's just so

hard to forgive. It's so hard to know the fact that you pushed me away when I just wanted to be merely friends. Was that wrong? Was that inappropriate? Was that a mistake?

I'm sorry to say that I hate-d you, it was a moment of haste.

Please try to understand. I, too, want things to be the way they were then, but it's too late to regret.

I still want you to be my listening ear, I still want to tell you things.

There's a whole lot to tell you, but I just don't know where to start.

But things cannot be the same way, that, is a fact.

I'm sorry.

):

I MISS LOVE!

♥

&i bet Syafiah does too.

:D

Training was tiring.

Oh, today I gave a wakeup call to Boyf. Yes, because he wanted to.

&so he left already and will soon be back. I'll cope.

Boo, holidays are boring. Nothing to do , only Maths.

I DO MATHS DURING THE HOLIDAYS, because Dad asked me to.

I didn't want to disobey, I'm trying to listen remember?

&I pretty much want to do it, I want to pass my Maths.

I can't go on failing, correct? Just agree.

Can't write for long, I gotta go bathe, do maths, cuci kasot, read my book for the book review, do my english homework & many more.

Ciao, till then.

BOOM!

Believe it or not, I'm studying. &I'm taking a slight break,

so yeah. &also, I'm searching for the contemparary writer for my book review online.

so there's a reason isnt it?

&ohyeah, kakak say she doesnt understand me anymore?

Really? Have I changed? Have I changed in a sense that you dont know me anymore?

Funny.

But hey, I'm going to try to listen more than going against everything that they say.

(:

Meet-the-Parents was shittos.

Dad gave up halfway, I wanted to stop him. But I didn't have the energy to.

Dad , I'm dissapointed in you , as how much you are in me.

Because I didn't expect you to give up on me halfway,

Because I thought you'll be there for me.

Because I thought that you'll push me even further.

I guess , you're just as weak as me, Dad.

&now , all I have to do is to promise myself that I'll study even better.

Just so you know, I dont make empty promises.

&I did try my best. I really did.

Nice one Noora , nice one .

You'll dissapoint your parents once again , along with yourself.

When are you going to ever wake up ?

Like finally ,

I can hear your voice again. Now, I can finally assure myself that you're okay.

(:

Still waiting for your text.

I guess waiting just ain't enough .

I spent my Saturday afternoon talking to Syiqin(Sec 1) on the phone ,

we had a great talk , telling each other secrets. Heh.

I spent my night chatting with Zamirah , about Amir and all .

Amir , dont make me worry so much for you .

It's just too painful to worry.
I hope your ears are still listening to me praying that you'll be fine.

Because you're just not replying my msges , that makes me worry about you even more.

&then you said you'd call , but you didnt.

&you're sick somemore , whaaaaaaaaaat ):

I miss some people , but they've barely left me for 24 hours !

Shiqin has gone to Batam , Afifah has gone to Melaka .

pffffffffffffffft , how ?

&Boyfriend's sick mannnnn , he's making me worried like @#$#@$%#^$&%.

& go top-up your prepaid alr , so I can talk to you and know how are you right now.

):

I'm sad , don't kacao .

I walked all the way from Jurongville to Bukit Batok , pass 8 bus stops , took 1 hour .

(:

I have blisters , but it was worth it.

It took me a while to realise , that this is life.

sarcastic , much .

I didn't say MY life was perfect , did I ?

If my life was perfect , I wouldn't have cried for 4 days straight kay .

YOU too , don't know .

Now I admit , it's partly my fault also .

HAPPY?

HAHAHAHAH, & kalao kite teraser , asl kao reply balik pat blog ?

You're not the only one in the world you know .

Kan da kenek balik , nak kenek kan orang agak2 uh sikit .

Saper makan cili , der yg raser pedasnyer :D:D

Tell yourself this first uh .

At least I am , now.

This sucks .

The e-learning sucks , because everyone's having problems with it.

Lag , yeah . Thats the word .

Dammit ar siol , I give up on this .

dammit ar siol.

Is it wrong to befriend a friend?

Is that how you define 'stealing a friend' ?

Oh c'mon , you could just go to her right ?

You just don't want to socialize , that's all .

Merepek uh .

If you don't like me , then tell me straight to the face.

I've known you , that's why I've warn him about you .

& yes , I AM happy that he has broken up with you , because I AM happy that he has finally broke free from you , you bloody -.

& what's my relationship has got to do with this?

It's MY problem if I cannot last long or even CAN last long.

You're just jealous right ? pfffffffft .

Nobody's born to be perfect .

yes , Maii is getting closer with me , because she's spending alot of time with me nowadays .

You jealous ? If you were her kakak , then why didn't you even bother to go to her & just let her be with me ?

And at last , Maii & I gets all the blame.

Tell me , isn't this your fault to start with ?

HEY, realise your mistake first .

HAPPYHAPPY day .

I am a happy girl (:

Yesterday.

went to watch Ironman with Boyfriend , Rahmat , Shahir , Arif & Rawi .

Hahaha , we bought the popcorns for nothing , halfway through , we didn't want to eat them anymore.

Wastage of money .

I was late , no , Amir was late-r than me k .

After the movie , went to Chevron .

After Chevron , went to Long John at JEC , oh , saw Wahyuni .
She's working there . eh .

I reached home at 10 and I was dead beat . So I just bath-ed and slept .

Art was screwed .

Today.

2 months baby , ily♥

I once told you the feeling's different from the others , it's true .

I once told you that I don't know how I'm going to face the break up(if!) , it's true .

I once told you that I needed you , it's true .

I once told you that I'm scared to lose you , it's true .

I once told you , you're the reason for me to hold on , it's true .

Time can't erase a feeling this strong.

No way , you're never gonna shake me.

I'm not placing high hopes on anybody anymore.

They dissapoint me , alot .

So , in the first place , why must I even bother ?

Sheesh , life .

(This isn't for you , sayang)

Swear .

We've been through alot , seriously .

Now , it's time to cherish , time to start afresh .

Today had a blast . Not with Lydia , Ayu &Syafiah .

(I missed out the fun at Lydia's house . Boo)

But with Boyfriend , Shiqin , Maii , Shahir , Afiq , Nurin , Afifah , Mus and some others .

They are such an awesome bunch , they made me laugh my ass off !

&I think I can everyday suntan pat basketball court tu , because I've been spending everyday there watching people play soccer or even playing soccer with them under the scorching sun .

#

And things have been happening , but somehow I've managed to cope .

&somehow , I've lived till this day . Cheh , dramatic .

I know I'm strong , I tell myself this everyday .

But somehow , at the end of the day ,

I don't find myself strong at all , because I'll end up crying and brooding over the littlest things that can ever happen to me .

I don't want to be like this , I want to be strong . I have superpowers right ?

#

&HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SYAFIAH !

You never fail to make my day every single day .

&yesterday , was the first time that you ever comforted me when I cried .

It really touched me eventhough I didn't really respond and countinued weeping .

#

3rd chance . I'm giving it another try .

Because I know , that this time it will be perfect .

Let's start anew , forget about the past , forget about how we quarreled over the same thing againandagain .

I won't do what I did to you again (Same to you Shiqin!) .

Really .

You worry me too much .

Everything's solved now , I'm glad.

Thanks friends , for the comfort , when I needed you guys the most , really .

I thought it was the end , I was prolly weak after all those tears .

(&maths paper2 was screwed because of this)

It was worth it anyway , we are together back .

& boy , you worry me too much , seriously .

no .

I need a confirmation , Lydia is true .

Eyecandy is nice .

Friends are the best things for me .

Boyfriend , no more arguments uh , I'm sick and tired of it .

You lied . pffffffffffffft.

Too many setbacks , too much problems , too litle trust .

Is this what they call love ?

Was this suppose to happen ?

I can't stand this anymore , you told me that you've never lied before ,

but what is this ? Isn't this what you call a lie ?

):

A 2nd chance .

That's what I'm giving this relationship , I don't want to leave .

I just want to stay , if not , what is the point for those tears yesterday ?

I STILL LOVE YOU KAY !

♥